This post isn’t 10 things about myself. But, is about the fact that as a Mother, Daughter, and Wife, life isn’t always so easy. Life is filled with ups and downs, and lately, life has been filled with stress and truthfully depression. So what has me so stressed and depressed here lately? How am I dealing with it?
I am not a doctor and have no qualifications to tell you how to overcome any of this, but this is just how I deal with my life right now, right or wrong, this is what helps me overcome everything going on in my life. Don’t forget to check out the giveaway at the bottom of this post.
Why So Stressed?
You may be asking yourself why I am so stressed and as I said, depressed? I have beautiful children, a loving mother, and a husband who adores me. What is there to be depressed about? I get to stay home with my kids, care for my mother, and spend the evening with my loving husband.
Stress comes from not pulling my own weight in this family. I feel like I am putting undue stress on my husband that he doesn’t deserve. Everytime I try to make a run of my photography career, it seems to just slap me in my face. No one wants to hire a photographer anymore. Even with a special that is just $25.00 (with a special first 15 get it for $15). I have thought about just selling my camera and not temping myself anymore with that. I was blessed to get my Silhouette for Christmas, but then I feel like I made a HUGE mistake by helping someone else now…
I made decals for her business but when I upgraded my machine, I sold her my old one and now I don’t have any business at all. I know I can get my name and goods out there sooner or later, I just don’t have that many people in my social network to sell locally.
Did I make a $1,500 Mistake?
I posted about my smile and haven’t done an update yet. It is partially because I am slightly depressed over what is going on. Yes, I paid right at $1,500 for my new dentures and I am still suffering from depression over my teeth. It has been something that has been 6-7+ years in the making but I am just 32 years old and wear a denture. I know I will be sharing more about this in the future, but this is one of the things that has me feeling even worse for wear than I really should. I see myself in the mirror when I get ready for bed, and I do not want to come out of the bathroom.
I hate myself when it comes to this damn denture. Or more when I take it out. I hate how I look like the cartoon of old people with no teeth. I don’t want to take the denture out when I am around my husband because I don’t want him to see me like this. I know that he is due to have one place also, and I know he doesn’t care, just wants me health and happy. One day I hope to have a hybrid or snap in one that I never have to take out.
Watching Someone You Love Disappear.
I know my mother loves me. I know that she appreciates everything that I do for her. BUT! I hate watching COPD take over her life. I hate watching this brilliant and energetic woman slowly disappear before my eyes. From the 6′ tall native american woman, with a heart full of adventure, to the woman that can barely move off the couch. I know that she will not be with us for long.
So What Do I Do To Overcome All Of This
How do I pull myself up out of bed every morning? How do I get the courage to curl up in bed every night with my husband? So what do I do? First I remind myself that I am loved by my family. That all of them love and need me in their life.
My computer work is the next thing. I get on here and figure out something to do. Be it, working on the Odysseys Creations site, learning a new skill like I have over at *SkillShare (Get Two Months Free With This Link) Curling up in bed with a big cup of coffee and *Amazon Prime Video or even a book from *Kindle Unlimited. And yes, I just plugged in three different affiliate links in a row. Simply because those are the three things that I believe in now.
I also have been enjoying my baths, its helped me a LOT in relaxing after dealing with a 5 year old’s tantrums and the teenage entitlement. They really are not that bad, but sometimes they get on my nerves.